And so it’s done, after months of rejecting friends’ encouragement, knocking sense into me and assuring me, I have decided to do sth abt it. I know the consequence of it, i know what I’m putting myself into and what lies ahead, I know the risk and yet I had to do it. A lot can change in 3 weeks, changes are inevitable. I might lose you after 3 weeks, I might not be able to attend your graduation anymore, I might lose everything that i have now, the happiness, the company, the love, the friendship and most importantly, it’s you that I’d be losing. Then why still do it I’d ask myself, and the answer is at least I’ve tried. At least I’ll have an answer to all the doubts that has been building up for months in my head! I may have to go through it for a third time, and I know this time round is gonna be harder a lot harder but i have to try to be optimistic about it.
But then again, there is this thin line of hope in me that is hoping tat things will change. I dun wanna lose you, I dun wanna lose whatever we are having now. Please at least try to understand where I’m coming from before you tell me no, please at least look at the times we spent together before saying you are not ready. Waiting is not an issue, but please at least assure me of what i’m waiting for. Please let me know that I deserve to be loved too.
